General thoughts on today
Apathy and Procrastination
I’m getting into a funk — at least that’s the term Carl uses to describe a general apathy towards the world and it fits my current mood. I’m not sure what’s behind it. Maybe it’s all the things that need to be done but not yet being at the point where those things must be done. That’s not quite true. I could be doing them, but I still have time, and that schoolboy tendency of only tackling things at the last possible moment is kicking in.
Yes, I could start changing addresses — or even list out what needs to change. Yes, I could fill in the forms to swap doctors or complete the blood tests that have been sitting here for months… but I’m apathetic towards them because there’s still time. Only when it becomes urgent will it rise high enough on my priority list to prompt action. The ironic part is that there’s nothing higher up the priority list — I’m just apathetic.
The Cycle of Hobby-Hopping
I get like this from time to time, and it’s probably part of the reason I hobby-hop: engaging and obsessing over one project until I’ve reached a point where I’ve learnt what I can, then losing interest and moving on to something else. I’m perpetually stalked by boredom, despite having a long list of different, exciting, and new things to do.
For example, last month I dove into a photography project — learning about framing, light, and composition. But after reaching a certain point, the excitement faded, and I felt done with it. The cycle continues.
Achievements in AI and Writing
One achievement today was rewriting the Inhibitor Phase - Alastair Reynolds summary — basically because ChatGPT made most of the plot up. It’s still not all-powerful, all-knowing, all-present. Not like God.
Although one thought keeps cropping up in my head: we’re the only species that has not only domesticated animals into pets for us to look after, but also created technology — like AI assistants and automation — to look after us (overlords, masters — take your pick). The irony of creating our own digital caretakers is hard to ignore.
AI Projects and Theming Consistency
On the topic of AI, ChatGPT now has Projects, so I’ve set one up to help with my spelling and grammar. I’m mainly going to use it as a proofing tool, but one of the offshoots has been using Dataview, a plugin for Obsidian that allows me to query and display notes dynamically, to pull a list of themes out of my Themes directory. I’m hoping to use this to build a more consistent set of themes. Theme List
Reflections on Mere Christianity
I’ve started listening to Mere Christianity, which so far is presenting some interesting points. It’s making me reconsider a few aspects of faith and logic… more on that as I get further into the book.
Faith
Prayer List Today’s thoughts and prayers were centred on people coming to Christ who don’t know Him yet: Cristyn, Ross, Chriss, Lee… The Spirit moves people and opens hearts, and I pray that, over the coming years, seeds of faith can be planted. May those seeds be tended, nurtured, and grow into a flourishing relationship with Him.
TV
More Black Doves
Food
Calories eaten:: 1640 Calories burner:: 2083
Tags
apathy,procrastination,hobby-hopping,ai-projects,faith,prayer,writing,technology,reflections,personal-growth
Themes
Daily Notes, Change and Transition, Resilience and Mental Toughness, Digital Garden, Faith and Action, Artificial Intelligence, Transformation Through Faith, Practical Kindness, Human Fragility, Existentialist Philosophy, Cycles of Motivation, Technology and Dependency, Overcoming Apathy